My Life As It Is

Did you miss me? =)

2010-01-28T20:45:00.004Z

Towards the end of two zero zero nine....
I felt the pinch when I saw a video of an acquaintance proposing to his girl. No, don't get me wrong I am not into this guy, but it just got me thinking... Will I be able to meet someone else whom I'll love and be my lifetime partner. You know when you hit twenties these things just starts bothering you. I've got a whole lot to think about...sometimes too much and too far. Can't deny that bit. Anyhow, congratulations to Derek (my so called friend), be good and best wishes!

Oh. Happy New Year everybody! Can't believe it's 2010 already.
And I'm graduating this year!
Not too long more till I get to see D. =)

It hasn't been a great start to the year but I believe everything happens for a reason, and things will get better.
I wouldn't say 2009 as the best year in my life. Anyhow it did bring big surprises and blessings to me. Well, stating the obvious...I met... The person who's capable of making me smile and laugh, as well as crying out like a baby. Not forgetting that I had a good good Summer!

And I spent the entire winter break in California. In fact, extended winter break because i was stranded in L.A. as my flight was canceled due to bad weather conditions in London. Man...speaking of that, its been a few weeks and i still haven't contacted British Airways to get some compensation for the extra days. Well, I am not gonna go into details on the trip just for now. This post is just a greeting to all of you after a long hiatus.

Last but not least, I hope this is gonna be a good year or even if it's not, I know God is always there looking after me. Same to all of you, I hope it will be a great year for all of you.
Take care and Hello 2010 again!

p.s. it took me two weeks to actually complete this.

Aww Cute!

2009-12-11T21:38:00.000Z

3:53am on this cold lonely winter night

2009-12-08T03:53:00.000Z

If it's wrong to do what is right,
what else can there be done

I don't wanna leave or run
Becos I've got no place to go
And it is such a small world
As far as I go
I'll still be found
Sooner or later
Tell me now what should I do?

7th Dec 2009

2009-12-07T15:33:00.001Z

If you want to believe...
This is not what I want.

Got nowhere to hide...
It's time to make changes.

A new month a new start?

2009-12-01T17:28:00.000Z

You came without a sign and left without a note.
I still think about the times we shared.
Do come back when the time is right.

I finally updated my blog!

2009-11-27T12:25:00.000Z

To my dear readers from New York, Melbourne, Reading, and the rest of the world...

I am sorry but to disappoint you yet again. This post is just to announce my hiatus from the blogging world for God-only-knows how long. Unless i stumble upon an extremely emo-fying day again.....then only i'd blog. Until then.... ta-ta.

So take care everybody!

Could I Have This Forever?

2009-10-28T20:03:00.000Z

2 bits in this post. One is note to self. Two is note to friend.

1. Misery oh misery... please go away. It's all or nothing now.
I strive to excel but procrastination is my biggest enemy. And lazy bones too.

You sing a song to me

To make me happy

You light up my world

Even at the darkest hour

You are everything

Everything I could ever wish for

Random quote:
There's no love without tears, there's no happiness without sacrifice.

2.Sometimes, you know you've to let go because it's not meant to be.
Sometimes you feel life is so unfair, but stop and count your blessings again.
He has better plan for all of us, whether you're a believer or not.
Don't look back on what's been done, it's too late to regret.
There's only a future to repent.
It doesn't come by easy and it doesn't take a lot to end it too.
If two souls can't commit, it's nothing but just empty.
You'll get over it soon enough.
Enjoy life while it lasts.
You know you deserve better. Leave it to the hands of God.

Maths Honours Project

2009-10-22T20:46:00.006+01:00

Numerical approximation of the Landau-Lifshitz equation!

1st attempt ( 22nd October 2009 4.20pm )
Had an introduction session with my supervisor, Dr. Banas.
Gave a rather brief intro on what to work on the project but it was already so much for me to take. :(
Lucky that he is friendly and quite helpful.
I guess he knows that I'm lost... I look lost at least. =/
Okay i've a goal.
If i progress well with this project....i will continue with Masters! Weee!

(Keep on dreaming....Yen! )

I don't understand a crap....

My reading material...

and I went gaga.....for a sec...

To reduce stress and ease the pain lately...

Hahaha. nooo!
I was at Iceland buying some snacks for my late night studies and then.... ta-da..... Carlsberg was on promotion. 8 bottles for 4pounds... =D
Okay I bought it cos someone told me to get some alcohol and loosen up a little.
Well it was really crazy this few weeks.
Hope everything will soon be as good as it started.

P.s. To whom it may concern...
I'll always always love you.

Curiosity kills

2009-10-18T20:30:00.003+01:00

I wished I didn't know.
The more I know the more it kills my soul.

But I still miss being in ur arms.

Run. I just wanna run.

Addicted

2009-10-15T20:00:00.002+01:00

Aiyoh. I'm falling deeper and deeper for this clown.
He's like so cute. Or maybe cos he was a little high.

What do you do when you try to reach Yen but was forwarded to voicemail?
Hang up right? You definitely hate listening to the O2 lady saying "welcome to the O2...la la la...."
This clown of mine actually spoke..... And it went on for like 30 secs or more.
"Hello...darlin...hellooooo... can you hear me.... are you there? ..... dear....."
Hahahaha.
SWT!!!!

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I want Volvo S40 2.0 Powershift .
daddy pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :D

Two is Better Than One

2009-10-14T22:10:00.001+01:00

I remember what you wore on the first day
la la la.
Maybe it's true that I can't live without you
la la la
Two is better than one

Please don't disappoint me or you'll break a little girl's heart.

Once upon a time ago

2009-10-13T18:56:00.002+01:00

Was sitting in the bus when I saw this two kids, about 9/ 10 years old. Really young... They actually took public transport home after school. Hmm just wondering it must have took a lot of courage for their parents to let the kids do so yeah?
I mean I don't think my parent's would ever let me do that at such a tender age.

Then the bus passed by a school. Currie Primary School.
Ahh and I wonder if I ever get a chance to have kids, send them to school, see them grow up, etc.

Being older sucks.
I don't wanna grow up.
Please and thank you.
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I can't do this by myself
I can't be somebody else.

How sweet it is to be loved by you

2009-10-12T19:50:00.003+01:00

Everything turned out fine. Everything is okay!
Better than ever.

*Sorry Choong Wai Cheng for keeping you awake till 4am the other night.
You know I'd do the same for you. . . =D
If and only if it's serious problem. Lol.

*Thank you bro Aaron for listening to me rant.

*Oh Biatch Cheryl ! I hate you cos you don't wanna pick me up from the airport. . . Hmm but I still love you loads babe.

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Now, this path that we chose to move on is gonna be tough, filled with lotsa obstacles. We are going to do this together.
Might be dumb naive small little girl but i guess I've got nothing to lose to be with him. No regrets whatsoever.
You're amazing , D!

Good morning Malaysia!
Good evening Scotland!

Study study study!

Always on my mind

2009-10-11T22:00:00.004+01:00

Not sure how long I'm gonna take to suck in when he dropped a bombshell by telling me the truth.
Was glad he told me, in a way pleased that he didn't wait till i was back home to inform me.
So much to suck in. I have no idea how I'm coping with it but i guess I'm doing not bad.
It's gonna take awhile i supposed.

At a point i felt very secured , now it's like back to square one, just gotta build from scratch yet again.
You'll still be my number one.

As usual nobody would understand what I'm scribbling about here.
=)

Oh well, tomorrow's the start of week 5 already.
I still remember clearly the day i left and the person who came all the way to see me! Loads of love!

Love you all.
Good night sweet dreams.

P.s. Alicia Chu, sorry for not catching up. Got so much to tell you, yet couldn't find time and the time difference is a pain in the arse.

No Matter What

2009-10-11T15:28:00.003+01:00

Despite all that has happened, I'll still stand by you.
There are certainly no regrets in all that I do for you. =)
I thought I've seen a lot in the past but this is really something I'd never expect to happen. Ever in my life.
They say life is like a drama. I'd say life is a drama.
I'm the star in my own movie. I need no producer nor scriptwriter for it.
I did stop to ponder if I'm doing the right thing.
Well, if you never try you'll never know.

Study study study!

If you leave me now, you take away the biggest part of me

2009-10-09T13:13:00.002+01:00

59 days to CFA Level 1.
I've got a feeling.... it's not gonna be a good outcome.
I hate hate hate this ...!

I made a deal with him....risky.
Need to obtain flying colours in both university work and CFA as well.
Slap me!!!!

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Anyhow, I wish i was there for you dear.
sometimes i wished i was a lil older, more matured so that i can help ease the pain you're going through.

Out of my mind

2009-10-07T13:51:00.000+01:00

This probably had been the longest hiatus ever. Anyhow, I'm back.
It's time to pen down my thoughts again, instead of leaving it floating around my head and going nowhere. It's getting congested up here.

What do you do when you meet a guy who makes you laugh, makes you smile and also capable of making you weep ( tears of joy and sometimes sorrow too). Life. Why do we always always have to end up with things that we'll never get. Somebody enlighten me please and thank you.

Sometimes you try so hard to assure the certain someone only to find out that it's gonna take more effort to persuade and gain confidence from him. Just try harder. Time will tell.

Sometimes you try so hard to assure the certain someone and only to find out that he still doesn't believe everything would be alright. Damn. How much longer man. How much more do i need to persuade . Try harder? No,thanks.

If I leave, I'd be running away. I know life is not easy. Nobody said it was. Love too.

This tears on my face...they don't come easy. They don't flow like river Thames. But I'll just hang in there and keep on fighting. It's just 7 months more.

Sorry. It's a sad sad post.

God bless me. God bless the world.